from Refuge Whimsy: Portraits
Word count: 774
Paragraphs: 29
The Movies
It’s like the day before the election results, when the Xeacher
screened Claudia Rankine’s “Situation 9,” a video so
Cremasterricificesque liquid white bods and faces in dey’s
class, “Blue and Brown: Race Gender and Blackness,” Not
a long enough gecture, and the Xeacher’s students sed they
were “disturbed.”
— The Xeacher
And then X returned to the well
that stirred the morning after,
and tried to figure out, where’s mah route?
What language, and feeling requires
radical forms of protest, reclamation,
the wince as mode, inner: AGAM,
quiet, “affect,” – I use a little of that
sez the half why T. Mostly flip.
Now, where and how narratives
B stories: possible streams troll.
Min formation break a Bitch’s
Back: as we undrStimate the sense
able boy, born’d guilty as known.
Quarters in a front pocket, who works
to get his baby body in front of a machine,
Black, a minute of pleasure, a life of if,
Then, to VOTE the feeling of being in a state
of knowing how long it take Z to earn $100.
The Image
The surface ah da pool, gon be hot to return, foo say it rude.
Sun no grey gon on of the long texts sun, go ti lan.
Erector sets in the house, and, too, screwdrivers:
Jan Brah, Naw gun means you must kill, spitfire, sonic radar,
June die soon, plaid, pan, sort of, hell-fire, goalie, sun
Terror, fawn legs thick to the side of free won:
Eric slides by later at night, mighty mouse, hub stub chub, means
Nothin’ by it: raw, caw, was, marrow, public pubic there.
At the scenic, overlook, which is how you find grey.
Blowtest, sun dee dee, delight is the foil, foiled plan, Steelers game on
Clear makes a path through a blight too, and voices carry
From one shore to the next, seep, pee-sing, forgo, clear.
Clear, all this place. Clear today: In the movie, dessert, desert, well,
I want to think your place is poked, doky dil saw, go, frig, fag
Violencia, law and order, for whom, and in what last way?
God. Reasonable, fear, into the big forest, I will never follow you, as you.
Get to them, activate your community, seal, otterop op, do done do
Saneekay. Saneekay. Saneeekay.¹
1 Saneekay: The feeling one understands in the grey rain,
when the blocks top off the frequency, the spell of the face, the face
of the injury, which is not an injury, but something else, one in which
you are happy and horrified. Or, specifically, when one is
‘tween wakey and sleepy.
The Poem
Re go, move, but to where, oh why, she/her says, in white, on
drugs, to get all spongey in the crotch, and Re Po be, so curi-
ous about did momentusnoussness know, now. Food Orgy
B Where and how narratives are stories, possible streams,
and trolls puncturesensigratis: doors close and snap black
digits, It’s “Like · Reply · Just now,” was Theo JAMMIN ON
THE ONE on the Cosby Show when the drugs flowed into the
juice, and the juice came out black behavior, Coz rape and
rape, and this is a one way street is the inclusive video that
we want to see inclusion. ICU, and ICY.
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C-HORSE
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“I’m traumatized by a STAT,
we ONE,
and I love SATAY.
It’s like the day
before the election
results I showed
Claudia Rankine’s
Situation 9 White video,
as part of my Blue
and Brown: Race Gender
and Blackness Lecture,
and my students
said they were “disturbed”
and then we returned
to the well of emotions
that stirred the morning after,
and tried to figure out,
where the route,
what language,
and feeling is required in/as
radical forms of protest,
reclamation,
resonance, the wince
as mode,
inner, quiet, ‘
affect.
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Ronaldo V. Wilson, Ph.D., poet, interdisciplinary artist, and academic, is the author of Narrative of the Life of the Brown Boy and the White Man, winner of the Cave Canem Prize; Poems of the Black Object, winner of the Thom Gunn Award for Gay Poetry and the Asian American Literary Award in Poetry; Farther Traveler: Poetry, Prose, Other, finalist for a Thom Gunn Award for Gay Poetry; and Lucy 72. His latest books are Carmelina: Figures and Virgil Kills: Stories. Wilson is Professor of Creative Writing and Literature at UC Santa Cruz, serving on the core faculty of the Creative Critical Ph.D. Program; principal faculty member of CRES (Critical Race and Ethnic Studies); and affiliate faculty member of DANM (Digital Arts and New Media).